“Not everyone will understand your journey. That’s fine. It’s not their journey to make sense of. It’s yours. As much as others may — at most times — identify with you or your actions, it is impossible to go through life without occasionally being misunderstood. While you can control what you say or how you act, you cannot always control how others choose to interpret it.”

 There are certain ways I envision my life. There are places I want to go, things I’d like to see, activities I’d like to do, people I’d love to meet, foods I want to taste, music I’d like to hear, etc. The world is so amazing and so large. It would be a crime to myself to only ever live in one place, eat one kind of food, and never experience how the rest of the world operates and how they live day to day.

I’ve been on this self-discovery journey for about a year now. I have seen some of the most amazing changes in myself over the past year. Looking back at my entries and re-living through my writing, talking to friends who see the changes, looking at how positive my social media presence has been is one of the most fulfilling things. Granted I still have tons of decisions I need to make for the next year of my life.I haven’t decided where my next home would be, what job I would like to tackle next, etc.

My life, and the way I am currently living it, is concerning to others; for what true reasons I will never understand. As a Freelancer money isn’t steady, but the joy is. That alone makes this worth it to me. Money can take me but so far, but peace will being a good person, joy for being able to do the things that fulfill me and meeting people I wouldn’t have otherwise met, can take me to all new places. Some family and friends feel like taking the road less traveled is too risky and that I should simply go back to 9-5 working, living the way the majority of Americans do, I WILL NOT! Opinions are like asshole- everyone has one but no one cares-so I think I will take my chances living how I want and see how that goes. If I bite off more than I can chew I’m still the one who has to chew it and it doesn’t directly affect anyone but me so I’m ok with that.

I realize that there are ways my mind operates, and the way my heart sings that keeps me in alignment with my actions. My mental flow isn’t the same as any other individual. There may be slight similarities and I may vibrate on the same frequency as others, but my life will never be the same as another’s. To put that into perspective, if I am baking a cake and someone is baking the same cake we wont have the same struggles baking it. My oven might have less wattage than theirs, forcing my cake to have to cook for longer and if I take it out based on their oven timer my cake will be ruined. Do not rush, just because you get to the top later. Simply rejoice that you made it, not how long it took, the issues that came up en route, how many times you had to start over, just be grateful to have made it.

How many of us rush the timing of our lives and end up ruining what could have been something amazing? Trust in the timing of your life, check on your success, no matter how small the progress is be satisfied, but still remain motivated. I base my faith in God and his timing and his timing is always right on time, not on my time.

I’ve been feeling like lately I can’t share my personal desires with others, I have written about this before, but it’s still weighing heavily on my heart. I’m realizing my journey to self realization is 100% a solo mission, to choose wisely who I allow to penetrate my circle of trust and bondage with myself. I love being around lively people who vibrate on a similar frequency as me because it keeps my spirits up. Being around people who are still, also known as still broke, still complaining, still in the same spot, still….is not good for my mental. Your vision is yours to understand, and those who don’t understand it will meet you with resistance. Some may try to turn your dreams into a nightmare. Just because they can’t think the way you think or are stuck on the way society constructed them to think, don’t take it personally. It’s not their fault. Them attempting to talk you down shows more about the way THEY think than about the way you think and/or move. Sometimes it’s best to move in silence and allow your success to make noise. It’s ok to be a dreamer. Dreams provoke action, action provokes movement, movement provokes progression and all the little wins accumulated equals success. You are different, and that’s commendable!

Best piece of advice came from my dad when I was about 4 years old. “I can show you show to ride your bike but I cannot tell you where to take it.” In life you receive guidance from those who already know how to do something, but realizing that you can do things differently and still use those skills is most important. Yes I know, I have an AMAZINGLY SMART Dad.

If there is one recurring themes from this past year I would say its, focus on your own craft, don’t pay attention to naysayers, do what feels right, be ok with redirection, don’t let fear control you, you will get lonely,you will cry,people aren’t always nice or genuine, you will get lost, but lost things get found, support yourself, surround yourself with positivity, and lastly you will be ok. 🙂